First of all, HOLY SMOKES. Boudoir is something I've had in the back of my mind for a long time, but always found a reason not to do it: It's too self-centered, it costs money (and you get what you pay for), I don't like my body, I'm too reserved/anxious/awkward...
I work in a hospital and see a life coming to an end on a fairly regular basis. Sometimes it's quick, sometimes it's slow, but one thing that sticks in my mind is, if that person knew this was the end, would they have lived differently? What did they hold back on because they were afraid? What leaps of faith did they take? How many awesome stories did they have to tell?
These thoughts have changed me over the years. Sometimes it's difficult, obviously but I try to see it in a positive way. For instance, I often think "what regrets would I have at the end of my life?"
I have an amazing family, so all I could really have for regrets are not treating myself kindly enough and I want to work towards changing that while I am still here.
I started following the Babes Club, and the idea of boudoir came back into my mind. One day I noticed an ad for a last-minute cancellation session, and I thought "If I don't book now, I never will!"
The big day was in about two weeks time. I was absolutely giddy until the day of the shoot arrived... my stomach was in knots and I wanted nothing more than to cancel.
I'm so glad I didn't! Arianna made me look so beautiful and Erika is patient and welcoming. I expected it to be awkward, my face to make strange expressions and the pictures to turn out a disappointment. But you know what?
My pictures were amazing. Of course, like most people there are things about my body that I don't like, but the poses, the lighting, makeup... I looked beautiful. I AM beautiful! I didn't know I had it in me.
And best of all? When I'm 90, I can look back on my beautiful photo album and not have to wonder, "what if..?" I took the plunge and showed myself I'm more than I ever realized.
:)
Also I'm going to add, when my book came in, I was absolutely floored at the quality. I've made the $12 picture albums online before but the boudoir album is on a whole other level!